How can this be, since I have not been intimate with a man?
— Mary in Luke 1:34
This morning my heart swells with joy from the Lord for all the blessings he has poured out on me. Faith, salvation, choosing me to be his and the very gift of faith to believe. I rejoice in this incredible calling he placed on my life to know him and make him known among the nations. I rejoice in how he has and is fulfilling his word to me.
As I read of Mary’s incredulity at her calling my mind resonates with her doubt:
How can this be, since I…
– am such an idiot?
—am so selfish and self-centered?
– am so ignorant and untrained?
– have no resources?
– cannot speak in public?
– am so wishy-washy and unstable?
– am me?
In the very midst of my doubts and fears the Holy Spirit confirms God’s words just as he did with Mary:
The Holy Spirit will come upon you,
and the power of the most high will overshadow you.
It is not I who do these things God has called me to do but the Holy Spirit working through me. Therefore, with this faith that is itself a gift of God I proclaim with Mary:
Consider me the Lord slave. May it be done to me according to your word.